The truth is, I'm not okay with it. Really. It still eats away at me. Even though I know there's nothing in my power that I can do, even though I know it won't change, I still despise the circumstances and I think it's all crud.
While we're speaking of truth. Truth fears no question. Honesty is sometimes hard but it's the right thing and purposely giving part of the details while purposely leaving out part of the others, is not being honest.
I'm still daily giving this part of me over to God. This "I don't understand" and "I need You" part. I recently read a post about Infuriating Grace. If I'm speaking about honesty and I'm honest with myself, I stink at grace. I seem to be willing to accept it from my Savior but I don't seem to be able to cut many people some slack. There's something significantly wrong with that.
Hmm. One more thing for me to "work" on or allow God to work on. Grace has been so freely given to me, I shouldn't be so stingy with others.
October Books
2 weeks ago
Wow, great reminder! I enjoyed this especially:
ReplyDelete"Grace has been so freely given to me, I shouldn't be so stingy with others."
I really need to be less stingy. :/
There is nothing more beautiful (and becoming more rare) than a gracious woman. Boy, I understand your struggle...it is my struggle as well, but something I really want to be.
ReplyDeleteI think you are too hard on yourself though. When I think back to some heated debates, I remember you being a gracious person...of course that's not IRL. LOL That's a lot harder, right? Love ya, Carmen!
-Lisa Carroll